The Struggle

WOW! That's about all I can say as a follow-up to my last post. We are so completely humbled and awed by all of the nice things y'all had to say, via this blog post, phone calls, texts, emails, and believe it or not, instagram comments. Ha. Gotta love the digital world we live in. I really felt the love and support, and it means so much.

I know our big announcement was a shocker for a lot of people, but for some it was a long-time coming. Those who have been more involved in our lives for the last few years have asked that I keep everyone in the loop with this pregnancy, and I really will strive to do so. Many of you know that we tried for a long time for this miracle of pregnancy. It's a funny thing, huh? Some people accidentally get pregnant, and then others struggle for years and pay lots of money. :) But I saw this quote and it really hit home:

Isn't that the truth? After doing many months of fertility drugs, 3 IUI's and 2 IVF transfers (and all of the fun that is involved in those processes... haha... joke), we finally had good news and found out we were pregnant. What a happy day for us. And then to find out two weeks later that we were having twins?!? The shock was tangible (and still sometimes is), but we were just so, so, so happy.

The last few years have had many moments of tears, frustration and sadly, bitterness. But after fighting my own demons and feeling peace with everything, I knew it would all be OK. Maybe not when I wanted it to, but eventually. This last weekend as we were driving home from my grandparents house in southern Utah I was talking with my sister (who has also experienced many if not more of the same things I have). When I was in the midst of this crappy trial and perhaps not in the best place, I would look at some peoples' lives and think "boy, isn't that a charmed life?" It was hard to not feel angry and that life "just is not fair." Life really isn't fair, but that's not the point. Our story of these twins now includes a beautiful struggle that brought us to where we are today. It's interesting, and perhaps unexpected, because lately I have been feeling so incredibly grateful for this trial. We have really tried to make the most of our situation. I have loved these last 4 years of being "just us." Yes, it was hard, but I wouldn't change a thing. We have experienced and done so much, and now I get to be a mom.

Hindsight is always 20/20, isn't it?

Thank you, again, for all of the prayers and happy thoughts that were sent our way over the last few years. It may be cliche, but we really couldn't have gotten through it all without the overwhelming amount of support. Now let's get these babies here already!! :)